Vegging...

It feels good to do nothing (if that's even possible!). I've been vegging out and lofting at home, watching DVDs after the other... Though I feel a bit lazy, it feels good to just relax and not think about anything! I've been keeping the DR team in my prayers and other things that pops up in to my head (for no reason on my own part), but other than that... I've been loving my time at home :) This upcoming year will be really interesting, filled with lots of activity and adventures! Though I can't wait to be a part of it all, I need to be re-fueled and re-charged before starting this new year.

At this point, I've been feeling more anti-social than ever (which is totally unlike me)...don't feel like seeing people, or being around people... ahhhhhh welll.... Don't know whether this is just one of those things that I have to go through or if it's an attitude that needs to be changed on my part. Sometimes I don't know whether it's me that needs to be changed or whether it's the outside that needs to change...don't know anymore. All I know is that I feel like my natural state is being transformed (more like Christ?!) and I feel like I'm losing all control in the process of sanctification (or whatever this is)...

Feels like my whole world is being changed (though I really haven't gone anywhere) and I don't know how to "be myself" anymore... This probably doesn't make sense to anybody, but just had to get this out of my system ;)