Crazy...

So...my twin sister got engaged yesterday!!!

It's still pretty surreal for me. Knowing that my twin will be getting married, still hasn't hit me completely. If you know our past, we've been together through thick and thin...and though I'm joyful and happy for her, I can't help but feel a bit sad at the same time. It's difficult to fully verbalize what I'm feeling, because I don't know exactly how I'm feeling (sorry for not making any sense!). Growing up, we used to plan our weddings together and would imagine up all sorts of scenerios...now...it's becoming a reality...crazy...

We're all growing up...it's difficult for me to handle change, but it's inevitable. I'm remembering the book and movie, Little Women...I so can relate to Joe, in that she had a difficult time with change. I feel exactly the same way...I want everything to be the way they are! I know that things are bound to become different, but accepting the fact that we're all growing up is still so hard for me :(

I'm such a moaner...ugh!

YUCK!

I've been feeling really "under the weather" these last couple of days. I think I caught something...(why didn't I get the flu shot?). Went to Mil Al church yesterday to listen to the India Mission Team's testimony and couldn't help but feel faint all day long. I felt like seriouly throwing up (even though I didn't eat anything). Sara was so helpful...she drove us home (I barely could keep my eyes open) and as soon as I got in the house, I collapsed on my bed. A couple of hours later, I had to jolt to the bathroom where I threw up 3 times...it was seriously gross. I felt so dizzy and sick... I hate it when I'm sick... I feel like I waste so much time!!!

I hope I don't throw up again :(

Mount Royal...

Montreal was awesome...although I was a bit stressed trying to get my essay finished. I wish I gave myself more time to write the essay, but there's always never enough time, it seems...A little red wine and some french baguette does seem to help just a wee bit (j/k!)

Being at Montreal MissionFest was good overall, although it did seem like there were way too many organizations trying to "recruit" (if you know what I mean...) I hate the whole idea of recruiting and mobilizing. I'm not a fan of strategies (although I've been told that strategies can be a good thing...I'm not yet convinced). If you don't have your eyes focused on Christ, Missions can be just like a business. Heck! If our eyes are not continuously focused on Christ, Church will be a business...and some churches are!!!

As I looked down at St. Joseph's Cathedral, I was able to see the whole span of Montreal from a really high view...it was beautiful (as you can see!). Funny how Montreal and the province of Quebec has become a "mission" field in and of itself. Coming to Montreal to "mobilize" for people to serve as missionaries to East Asia, I saw more of a spiritual need in Montreal! The difference is that in Montreal, there's lots of opportunities to hear the gospel...whereas in many other places around the world, the opportunity just isn't there. Even if people's hearts are open and willing, what if the opportunity just isn't there? How are people supposed to respond when they don't have anything to respond to?

FINALLY!!!

I finally got my essay finished! It was sooooooo stressful trying to get it done, while womaning a booth at the Montreal MissionFest and other busyness going on... Shannon has been soooooo patient and helpful (although shes been talking up a storm while Im trying to concentrate on finishing my essay). We met loads of people...lots of Francophones and recalling all the grade 9 French that I learned from Madame back in the NT days...

We got a chance to speak at a church here (I dont really know the name of the church..but the pastors name is Chris)...we talked about some of the things that Gods been doing in the midst of Asia and here in Canada. It was a multi-ethnic group and it was neat to see some familar faces (Hi Catherine!). I also got to meet Sammys friend Meji who was gracious and soooo nice :) Anywho...now I can enjoy some of the scenery in Montreal without worrying about the stupid essay that I had to wrap my head around...Although, I did learn quite a lot while writing it :)

Thanks to Shannon for staying up late with me, being patient at my crankiness and for being so supportive always!

NOTE: I cant seem to get the appostrophes working on this computer (were staying at a womans house who has an ancient computer...shes really cool, though...), so excuse the lack of appostrophes on this particular blog ;)

3 PM...

It's just really neat to see God moving in the midst of all the busy-ness...

It's hard not to get too boggled down with things and let tasks overun your life. Coming home after school, I realized how much stuff that needed to get done (people to respond to, catering to different people's needs, etc.) that I had to just detach myself from the computer and just breathe...that was around 3pm.

Went out for dinner with our OMF diners' club (nickname that we thought up), got home and called up Hyal. I just wanted to tell her that I got a coupon for Aldo (15% off!)...we talked about our day and she seemed intently interested, so I told her the details (including the almost breakdown fest that I had earlier in the day). She kept saying..."whoah, that's crazy..." I had no idea why she was saying this over and over again. Apparently, she felt compelled to pray for me at exactly 3pm... the things that she prayed for (she wouldn't tell me what they were) was related to OMF ministry. I was blown away by how much God knows and how much He cares for my little stresses. Although there's so much suffering and crap going on in our world, I find it so amazing that He still has the time to make it known that He "has my back."

As you could read from my previous blogs, there's just so much complaining that I do throughout the day and it probably annoys many people (including the man upstairs!)...Even though I'm not the best person to use (well, who is anyway?!), He still chooses to show me that He cares for me and comforts me in ways that are inexplicable to the non-believer. How can I not be utterly compelled to live out my faith as a response to His goodness?!